Cheez-its are the bomb.

We went camping last weekend and it was interesting. It was hot during the day and super cold at night. We went rafting on a 30 ft deep river and it was impossible to go anywhere because there was no flow. I got a sunburn on the tops of my knees and right below my shoulder blades (explain that one...) We made s'mores Friday AND Saturday night. I found a spider in my car last night. I'm totally ready to go back.

After I got back from camping on Sunday, I showered and then drove to NWA to see my family. I stayed at my grandma's house and then decided Monday morning that it would be more beneficial for me to skip work to hang out with my grandma. Good choice. I got to see my uncle (he's home from Iraq for two weeks) and hang out with him and his girlfriend. I think its getting serious. They're not engaged (officially) but I did see a very pretty ring on her left hand. I figure when its that serious they'll tell me. No sense in asking questions before then.

My parents are in the midst of trying to quit smoking. My mom takes a puff here and there but that's it. My dad is down to smoking less than 10 cigarettes a day. He used to smoke over a pack a day (if not two) so I'm quite impressed.

I think I have a sinus infection. I also think I need to be working on my homework instead of updating this blog.

I'm ready for a vacation...

The anxiety is not better yet. If anything else, knowing that I have an anxiety problem makes me more anxious. :/

I woke up late for the meeting (30 minutes after it started actually) and that did not start my day off too kindly. Also, there is a person in our cohort who's personality conflicts with mine and this person is so awkward that I become incredibly uncomfortable when participating in a situation with Student X (this is a good nickname for him/her...and if I ever refer to "Student X" you'll know its this particular person...).

After the big group meeting (even though only about 12 people showed) Korey, Hutch and I stayed in the student center for lunch. Some moron walked in with something wrapped in a large blue towel and it looked like a hunting rifle. We weren't sure what it was but we left because we didn't want to find out anything the hard way. Hutch called the police and they apprehended him (and whatever was under the towel). I'm sure it will be in the police beat in the Echo this week. We'll find out what it was.

I can't figure out if this stuff calms me down or just makes me sleepy. Or maybe it calms me down and my lack of sleep makes me sleepy.

I'm excited about GA this summer, but its hard to look at it as work. It seems like it's going to be a grad school vacation. :)

Knock, knock...

I don't have any good knock knock jokes. It's sad.

I'm incredibly behind on everything right now. I'm not sure what to do other than just take a whole day to sit down and re-evaluate the situation, and then fix it. I'm thinking that I may have to plan time to go to the library and just stay there for hours. :(

I finally went to the doctor about my debilitating anxiety and my inability to focus long enough to finish anything (much less my homework). Apparently, I'm neurotic but it's okay. (Kudos to Jenny Kyle for telling me what to do. She's not old enough to be my mom, but she makes a great one...) I apparently have a severe anxiety issue. Hopefully we figured out some stuff to fix it. :) And I can restart my life again.

I hate Wal-Mart. I'm ready for May 10th. I'm also ready to not have homework anymore.

Lacking Motivation isn't really an excuse...

I can't seem to make myself want to do my work. Even when I have the time and nothing else to do, I just can't do it. I'm at work. I have nothing to do and I have access to journal articles and books to finish my paper and presentation for theory. But I haven't done it. (I mean really...I'm posting right now instead of working on it). I think I just need some killer library time.

Echo made me dinner last night. Awesome Chinese food. It was kind of spicy, but tasted sooo good. I'm pretty sure she's just going to have to start cooking for me a lot. :)

Katie's coming to look at the apartment tonight after TP's class. I hope she can move in with me in the fall. I really don't want to move, and I really don't want to get stuck with a roommate I don't like. I think it would work pretty well though. We can keep each other on track with homework and the thesis, go out when we have free time or to celebrate whatever, dance parties, whatever. We should know in a few weeks. If this doesn't work out, I need a one bedroom apartment. And I hate apartment shopping.

Countdowns (ooh this'll be fun!):
9 days until the camping trip!
24 days until Graduation and the EOY banquet!
25 days until my last day at Wal-Mart!
30 days until China!
45 days until my grandma comes to Conway!
47 days until my first day at Dalton!
75 days until my BIRTHDAY! :)

Keep your eyes open. The dark is scary.

I took a quiz on facebook about my ideal job. It said bartender. BRING IT ON. I think that would be, quite possibly, the coolest job on the face of the planet. My new life plan is to finish college, get a job and move there, go to bartending school, and then bartend on the weekends. Once I get it all straightened out, I'll call you. Come see me and I'll make you a drink. :)

It's super cold in our office. :(

I had an uneventful weekend. Other than finding the owner of the sunglasses I found in my car (April...), nothing exciting happened. Except I only have 5 working days left at the hell hole (Wal-Mart). May 10th is my last day. Please come see me! Make it go by that much faster.
Friday night Hutch, Rachel and I went to the Looney Bin in LR. The show was awesome. The headliner was a female (Julie Scoggins?) and she was stinkin' hilarious. She walked on stage to "Single Ladies" by Beyonce and then made a joke about the youtube video we all know and love. I'm pretty sure Hutch almost wet herself, Rachel became an asmatic, and my eyes were streaming tears because we were laughing so hard. And they have awesome soft pretzels.

Time to do some homework type stuff. Papers and whatnot...

Late Start

I got up late this morning. I was supposed to be at work at 8:00. I actually woke up at 8:07. What's sad is that no one noticed, nor cared, that I was late. I've been sitting in the same chair for almost three hours, not doing anything, and absolutely no one cares.

I'm really annoyed at this whole Jinai/GA/crap cancel thing. She's practically throwing a hissy fit and its super annoying. Not to mention, it kind of makes me look bad because it makes it seem like my anger/agitation is unwarranted. Quite honestly, I don't care how she feels or how upset she is. I'm just sick and tired of her going around asking multiple people repeatedly if I'm still mad or if I'm the type of person who holds grudges. REALLY? Is that necessary? Soooo lame. Especially if she asks people who are my good friends and don't know her from Eve. JS.

Lindsey and I had dinner last night. It was nice.

My grandfather is home from the hospital (I think he has been for a week actually) and he's doing much better. If you kept him in your thoughts (be it prayers, hopes, or whatever) thank you!
And it reminds me that I need to call him. I'll do that today.

I may be living with Katie next year. Hopefully that works out. She's going to come by and look at the apartment at some point in the next couple of weeks. I really want to get this all figured out because I really need to know where I'm living in the fall. It's kind of stressing me out?

I've been super anxious a lot lately. It made me decide that I need to quit Wal-Mart for good before I leave and not hold off until I get back from China and GA. Why worry about it for another 3 months? I just have to figure out insurance. However, it has helped with the anxiety. I'm beginning to wonder if I should have that tested.

I feel like I'm neurotic. Can you tell from the post?

The new girl with blonde hair.

I have a monster of a headache right now. I can't figure out why. It just hurts. Imagine someone taking a needle and poking you repeatedly in the forehead. It's like someone's tatooing the devil right between my eyes.

I'm at AOEP and I'm bored senseless. They have nothing for me to do. At all. I'm just hanging out. Playing on facebook, updating my blog (hello....) checking my email, discussing carpool plans for class tonight, thinking about what I didn't do on my homework, etc. But no actual work. It's strange. Even though Greenbrier was crazy and dramatic, I would almost rather be there because I at least had things I could do and I still wasn't considered the "new kid" (even though I'm substantially not "new".
Maybe I should quit showing up and see how long it takes for someone to notice...... Eh...then they wouldn't pay me. :/

I'm hungry. I haven't left my desk since 8:30 this morning (other than a trip to the restroom). I should probably considered getting a snack. Or dinner...at four...like normal.

I'm supposed to leave at 2:30, but I think I'll make it 2:00. Maybe I can get a mini-snack at home to hold me over until dinner and I can semi-work on my SPSS homework that I didn't finish. Maybe it's thinking about SPSS that's giving me a headache. Or maybe it gave me one last night and this is a leftover?

Are you kidding me?

I went to the dentist this morning. His reaction to my mouth was this: "I could put a crown on that....or I could put a filling and save you some money. How does that sound?"

Are you kidding me?

Don't go to either of the Dr. Fulmers in Conway. They're either scam artists or completely insane.

I finished my China presentation slides during x-period 3 minutes before class started. That was interesting. I'm not going to lie though, I started 30 minutes before class started. It worked out. That's all that matters. And today is almost over. Now I just have to get through homework tonight, class tomorrow (and a test) tomorrow, class Thursday, and some other homework stuff and I'll be done for the week. I'm ready for Friday because I'll be able to go to sleep early and not get up until late in the morning.

Remember my list from last night?

I went to the dentist about an hour and a half ago, and found out some interesting information. Apparently, the tooth that broke was one that had a root canal done on it about a decade ago. So the tooth is dead already and won't abcess. That's good. Bad news? It's going to cost me $200 to get a silver crown that will last me another 10 years. Or I can spend $850 and get a permanent porcelain crown. Either way, I have to drive to NWA to have Dr. Scott do it because he'll help me out cost wise. ($200 is better than $300 and $850 is better than $1100). I just have to drive down (putting another 350 miles on my car), miss work and school, and figure out how to come up with this money.

I have to keep telling myself that at least I have food to eat and a bed to sleep in.

Broken

I was at work and Arien brought me some faux Runts. As I bit down, it broke one of my teeth. And it sucked. I have to go to the dentist tomorrow now, and I don't have dental insurance, so there's no telling how much this is going to cost. That blows. Does anyone know of a good dentist in the Conway area? :/

I'm really behind. Here's a list of things for me to do:
- Research proposal...that was due last Wednesday
- SPSS homework that's due this Wednesday
- study for stat test
- laundry
- powerpoint for theory presentation
- theory paper
- internship paperwork
- meeting with Melissa about SYE
- find partner for the camping trip
- clean my room?

I need to go to bed.

Farewell...to an Era?

I went home Friday so I could take back mom's car. She decided that 6 days was enough with my sunfire. I also decided that 6 days was enough time with her mariner so it was alright. It was just a long drive.

That night we went to the Duchovny's farewell show at the Pontiac. It was pretty good. I felt bad for Austin because April felt bad for Austin. His bandmates and best friends are moving to CO, so his band is drifting apart. Hopefully he'll find different avenues to play his music, even if it isn't in that band.
My favorite song is "Human" (originally by The Killers). It's just good.

I was supposed to work 1-10 today. I worked 1-11. I have exactly 8 work days left (spread out over 7 weeks-ish). I can't wait until the day that I walk out and never have to walk in as an employee again. I may miss the people, but I can see them when I visit. I won't miss the customers. I won't miss the complaints. I won't miss the service desk. I definitely won't miss the beeping machines they make the CSMs carry around.

I think Arien's weird.

Updates

I decided to start a new blog because I quit doing the XANGA thing...a long time ago... I miss having a blog/personal narrative area. Specifically, I have a whole period in my life (about a year) where I have no recorded feelings. I wish I had written in 2008 so that I could go back and see what happened to me and around me that I found important enough to post about in my own blog.

This graduate school thing is way harder than anyone told me it would be. I sleep even less than I did in undergrad, which I would have thought to be impossible. I also have a warped sense of importance now. I don't quite know what I should value and what I can rest on anymore. I do know that I have a research proposal that was due on Wednesday and I still haven't completed it.

I have a new celebrity crush. His name is Dr. Joe Cuseo. We can blame that on Dr. Cone for helping peak my interest in him and his work.

Hutch and Scott are now engaged, and they're probably getting married at the beginning of July 2010 (about 2 months after graduation). I'm very excited for them (especially Scott because I know how ready he was to propose!) and I'm also stoked to be one of Hutch's MOHs. Her cousin Allison is the Matron of Honor, and I will be the Maid of Honor, barring any falling out in the next year and 3 months. (I, obviously, don't plan on that happening and neither does she... I hope... :) hahahahaha).
It's really weird to think that 8 months ago we didn't even know each other. Some people you just have that connection with, I guess? That and we're family. :) (If you know, you know.)